When you’re six years old, you don’t have much in life to worry about besides listening to your parents and having fun with friends and figuring out your future out.

Several things I know I want to be in my future – rich, married with a family, and a doctor. Not necessarily in that order.

Besides figuring my future out, I’ve gotten into the habit of trying to figure myself out. Whether it’s journaling or taking personality tests.

I’ve gotten knee deep into personality tests. There’s not much I can do on the computer without adult supervision and parental controls, so I just look up personality tests on the Internet.

“So I’m going to die in two months.”

I look up from my notebook to see Mike grimly set his mouth in a straight line. I’m drawing infinity symbols again, something I do from time to time. I have an obsession with infinity. I love the idea of forever, and how infinity just stretches on and on and on.

Mike doesn’t get it. He doesn’t believe in forever or eternity or infinity. He thinks everything has an expiration date.

Even though I don’t like school that much, there’s some fun parts to it. Specifically, when I get to hang out with my friends at lunch time in the cafeteria.

I usually have a group of friends I sit with at lunch. Sometimes the group changes. Some people leave, others join, and they leave too. And sometimes I like to sit with other people at other tables, depending on my mood.

Life is like the tide as the moon waxes and wanes. Change is inevitable. But I hate change. I like permanence and things that endure. Like unperishable gold that doesn’t taint or corrode like silver does.

But silver has its uses too.

Sometimes I don’t notice things around me even when they’re right under my nose. Other times, I’m so perceptive that I can read a person’s smallest movement and deduce their feelings and mood in the moment.

I think it’s because I get lost in my thoughts a lot. I get bored so easily, that sometimes my thoughts are more interesting than the world around me.

School’s boring. I know all of the math that’s being taught, and I know how to read already. I can read British literature like Charles Dickens and Shakespeare, which most people my age can’t. I hate being stuck in first grade when I know I’m way more advanced than the other students.